Thirty.

This past Wednesday was my thirtieth birthday. Thirty. 29+1. Twenty-tenth. A new decade. I wasn't really looking forward to it, but everyone tells me their thirties are the best. I started it off with a little celebrating with a few of my favorite people....

 My twenties were full of love, friends,  fun, travel, heartbreak, joy, sadness, loss, heartache, growing, running, tears, career changes, responsibilities, dog hair, happiness, family, pizza, dirty laundry, and so many more things.

It's scary, lonely, and I absolutely can not wait to see what this new decade has in store for me!

At the end of the day...

The last few weeks have been weird. Stress consumed me. Rain has been an every day thing for the past week. I've woken up in the middle of the night twice while sleep walking. One thing remains the same...

"At the end of the day - your life, your attitude, the drama, all your other problems - you're going to have to take care of it, or no one else will" 

In the mean time...I get by with a little help from my friends. 

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If you forget..

"When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost. When I'm feeling most ghost-like, it is your remembering me that reminds me that I actually exist. When I'm feeling sad, it's my consolation. When I'm feeling happy, it's part of why I feel that way. If you forget me, one of the ways I remember who I am will be gone. If you forget, part of who I am will be gone." -Frederick Buechner

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I am good enough.

I got a phone call late this summer asking if I would be interested in a new adventure. A job that would push my limits. Require me to step out of my comfort zone. If you know me well then you know that is a difficult thing for me.  I'm younger than most in my position. A few have questioned my knowledge and experience. I wasn't completely sure I could do this. Taking this leap came after a lot of thought and a few tears. I was scared.

Yes, I share an office with 3 others. 👎

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In all aspects of my life I have to get out of the mindset that I'm not good enough. I'm not experienced enough. I'm not talented enough. I'm not skinny enough. I'm not fit enough. I'm not pretty enough. I am not good enough. 

I am good enough. I am. 

Just like the last few months of my life, the transition hasn't been smooth, but I have to keep reminding myself that I am good enough. 

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Forget your troubles

A few weeks ago I needed an escape. Big changes were happening in my world and I needed to get away. My friend stole me away for the weekend to relax and have fun. And run a trail race. 

It was everything I needed. And beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. 

"The Past is the Past"

That phrase is stupid. There. I said it. The past is never truly in the past. I am a firm believer that the pieces of my past define me. It is completely up to me to decide how I want those things that have happened in my life to impact my future. Some things stick out more than others but I'm going to take a piece from everything and keep on keepin' on. 

Year 29

I didn't realize just how spread out my posts would be when I created this blog almost a year ago. I said year 29 was my year. It was definitely a year. It was full of happiness, heartache, love, learning, growing and so many more things. My relationship with a good man of almost two years came to a close and I left my job of 6 years as a 4th grade teacher and took on the role as a math instructional coach. I lost the most sweet, caring, loving grandmother, or I always described her...the ULTIMATE grandma, the best grandma anyone could ever ask for. 

 Some of my most favorite life long memories were in year 29 and I am forever grateful for all of the people who contributed to my life during that time. 

29+1 happens this month and although I have no idea what's in store, I'm looking forward to it. ❤️